TNAW I

I want to go home.
I want to see my friends.
I want to never see india again.
I want to be as far away from here as possible.
I NEED to go HOME.
the end.

The Little Things Mess Up My Day (odd-rhyming poem on how i feel)

Sometimes my days are okay. and maybe sometimes i feel if i close my eyes and pray.... that everyting , might be alright.
sure things get hard and you have to fight, but then you realize ive been fighting the whole time.
I FEEL IM MAKING TOO MANY PROMISES ON THINGS IM NOT SURE OF.
continously fighting. for rediculous reasons in the eyes of foreigners .
im always standing up for my right. i cant afford to give up the fight.
and i cant sleep at nite, because home is always on my mind.
but the littlest THINGS that may seem so BIG happen most all the time .little things like seeing a boy beat up a girl on the road and get away with it. Seeing and Hearing actual mobs. Dealing with the peer presure.Little things like being downed by people who i actually thought maybe you can be my "friend" or things like Thinking about how i can help the unfortunate person who's begging for food outside my car, or how can i help the child who cant afford to go to a school. Thoughts like these often cloud my mind. and my reality is left somewhere behind, in a place called home.
i can barley make it by.
im just trying to survive.

the (countless) things everyone goes through

hey.
well.... so latley ive been up to things.... things like dealing with no access to a phone to call friends..... things like eating cheesecake to make it all better.... things like running 2-3 miles on the treadmill because i felt bad on what i just ate....things like trying to ignore what people say and at the same time trying to hide my true emotions...... things like opening awesome presents from home (USA) ...... things like remembering to simle... things like hididng my smiles... things like not smiling for a month....things like going through pain....... things like wanting to go home more than ever..... things like counting down the days until november 4th .... things like asking my mom if i can get new fall out boy songs on itunes.... things like wishing my sister happy birthday.......things like packing for the trip to europe... things like waiting for the power to switch back on....things like hanging out with people i dont really like.... things like clicking my heels.... things like watching movies that ive seen 100000 times.... things like learning new songs on my guitar.... things like studying for tests (ha! thats a first) ..... things like trying to make it threw the scary storms... things like dying my hair and wearing it however i please.... things like arguing and throwing things at my sister.... things like fishing live crabs out of the swimming pool....things like actually remebering to brush my teeth..... but basiclly things anyother person goes through.
............

to be continued

BREE NO LIKEY!!!!!

well there are atleast 2 new families that might be coming in, and well yeah.
i was the one who wanted to tell them your making a huge,cruel, brutal, heart taking , massacare,

,guilty,selfesteem-taking,terrible,unforgivible,hamful,deadly,uncool DOOMY DOOMY DOOM!!!!!
mistake..
personally, i hate india.
and i want 2 go home, more than anything that i could think of in the 3 years that i'll be here.

An Interesting Inian Independence Day.

well... its been like a month since i've posted anything.. soooo
i am just gonna talk about what happened latley thats worth menchoning..
well on 15/8/o8 was the independence day of india...
and we just pretty much went to a friend's house and blew fire works all night long.
it was great.
i even took some fire works home...
and practiced my french...
and drank apple juice until i felt sick...
but besides that great day... ive beeen dehydrated.... and pretty weak....
so yah, thats what ive been up to this month.
pretty .... well um interesting.

well for the most part i dunno.

me rocking out on one of the loves of my life.

me and my mom @ i forget.

my aunt dorthy modeling her beautiful new

swarma.

and yes i know swarma is a very fun word to say, i say it all the time when i get bored.

the look of " yes ive just gotton out of a pool and yes i do wish

this drink was a red bull"

my new dress, but here in india apperently my parents think that

something bad would happen to me, so i had to wear pants under it :(

the family @ i forget

im a super hero! yay!

my aunts . gotta love em'.

oops dont look at this.

pfffffftttttt........ i dunno. we've done alot this week and all, i mean we've gone to pondicherry, and visited a giant rock,and we've gone to a different parts of chennai and stayed in a sweet hotel. but ofcourse im still not happy, but this time i know why. Money cant buy happiness,in this case unless its a plane ticket back to chicago.I miss home, and i know everyone knows that. im just kinda losing what i had before....ya know . i'm more silent,because now theres not much to say. but i dont know why im that way... and like everytime i get to talk on the phone its like i dont know what to say because i havent said much that day, and then i always feel wierd after hanging up the phone.woa i just realized i made some of these words rhyme, wierd. but anyways its just ...........complicated. very complicated. oh yah did i forget to menchon my two aunts are here ? yah well my two aunts are here. happy friendsip day.

pee ess and incase you were wondering . i hate school, and i know that my friends and family are like oh well she always says that and ends up loving it in the end, well you know people in the world that may be thinking that i thought that too for a very short time...... but once i started thinking about it for another time i realized this isn't for me. the way i hate this school i can't even put it in words let alone type it. its like a whole new level of hate that im having a hard time myself understanding. so i guesse until im back in my little farm town i'll never be the same . but since im not there yet im just going to end this post and say that im =

F.I.N.E

Hobo hotel!

OMG. i miss home sooooo much. expecially my friends (hobo hotel) .
oh the memories, from the indoor water ballon fight to dancing on the roof.... to the choas in the mall..... oh i miss it. But i miss Terry my guitar instructer, he was a really great instructer and got me where i am today. Jessica told me to menchon her on here so yah......... Hi! jessica! anyways...... gosh i even miss flicking boogerz @ morgs face when she's not looking.

a special note to the people @ CHURCH

thanks sooooo much! for sending me the mail, i loved all the messages and the necklace,
the weather around here has been kinda crazy, and everyday i go to school i keep feeling that im forgetting my coat......... i dont know what id do if i had to have braces id probobly eat choclate ice cream ! if you have any questions that didnt get answered ( srry im on the phone with jessica and it's hard to try to remember, type and listen to her at the same time) just email me at duckysaysmoo23@yahoo.com
sigh... got to go ashley jammed up the keyboard on the other computer and wants me to try in fix it because the words on the desktop are all chineese.... 4 mn. l8r i fixed it! bye.

Everything Inbetween.

photos of Egypt,Lily,and Me just bieng me and everything

inbetween.

me & my dad :-) @ a pyramid me and my dad ontop of a mountain,just doing stuff.

egyptian people and my mom and sister (and me)in a crowd.

me @ 2:oo am. usually i'd be bouncing off the walls at this time , but i guesse i didnt have any red bull :-( or energy.

BALOONS! YAY

ummm......... i forget. ^_ ^

me and ashley on the Nile in a cruise ship of awsomenessess ^

look! its me coming back out of the land of waffles! ^

hieroglyphics

idk

idk either..... but dosent it look cool?

some more hieroglyphics

a crazy old man playing with snakes on the side of the road. He's my inspiration.

my mom and i,and my sister at some historical place again.......


me and my sister on a boat in the nile river.

oops> the family sitting on a ledge above the nile river. gates to some magical place, probably bat man's secret cave :-) some stuff on a wall.


me and half of my family waltzing up a pyramid.oh the thrills.

yah.my family by the spynx,and me ,im rocking that photo out hard.

my grrrrrrrrrr face.





me and my new boyfriend,cant you tell were happy together?

me listening to mad as rabbits,and sticking my tongue out @ you.







lily with the love of her life,her and that ball are just....the bests of friends , i mean she loves that thing more than me an my sister,i mean i dont get it, she has 3 other balls just like that one exept their different colors and she always picks that one.what ever.

lyrics of the year..........

the pros and cons of breathing.

stood on my roof and tried to see you.

forgetting about me.

hide the details, i dont want to know a thing.

wish that i was as invisible as you. make me feel.

text art of the month.

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( (..) ) <> -snake! %-{ - dizzy

xo loves,

gonna go to the mall today.so yah,have a nice day even if its night time.

good bye @~~~~~^~~~~~

lolz in Egypt

well if you want to know what we did on the trip to Egypt search for the post intitled land of the casanobas (aka my review on egypt), it should be below this post but anyway....
one of the funniest things i can remember happened on the cruise ship.have you ever been on a ship with indians?yah you have to be with the right type to really have a blast,the indians we were with were good ,but they can party.not like i can though.the best time to be on the ship is @ nite.thats the time where you go to the 3rd floor and hit the club,where you have opptions a.dance like theres no tomorrow,b.drink like you just found out you got fired,c.just sit there and waste your time.d.mingle..and for once in my dads life he decided to dance with me,infront of a crowd.ofcourse we were the worst thing you've seen sense brittany spears's last preformance.
the second funniest thing was me and my sister got bored , so in order to occupie myself i pulled my nobo pants up to my chest,buckled it with a tacky looking belt,tucked in my shirt,messed my hair up and put into a fake mohock,and ran up and down the hall way.just because im different.wish morgan was there,i still wish i wouldve never left home but were not gonna go there today.
#3 lolz was probably in the perfume shop,this guy, he was funny yah whatever anyways he was trying to sell my dad this sent called minutes to midnight(aka egyptian viagra)omg i was rofling. the salesmen even explained how it works and where to put it.wow.that was deep.
#4 lolz i was wearing these caprees i had for a long time,they were like blue ,light blue with big pockets and like ajustable leg things.know what im talking about?thoght so.i didnt know that they had a rip in the butt.so i was waltzing around cairo and or sharmel shiek cant remember with my happy bunny underwear showing barley.im gonna wear them again this week just because im stupid.
alright im gonna keep this one short and sweet.there is a market strip that you can go to HuGe.the first funny part about that ,well this one isnt really funny but you know they will hastle u .well i decided to go into a shop that looked modest,nobody in it ,thats what i thought.guy from southern africa,grabs my hand & kisses it and calls me my sister.yah end of that story.those who know me know what i would do in a situation like that.so i went into another shop after about 20 other ones i went before it.and i liked it they werent kreeps they were just 2 twenty year olds in a shop,no hastle ,no game ,just honest.they didnt beg,or do anything physical they after about 15 seconds one of them asked me may i help you madam?not in the snooty way.but it was funny because when they were making me this necklace that had my name in it in hieroglyphics the two guys were text messegaing each other back and forth one had a mario ring tone and the other had 50 cent lolz.but you know since me and my sister do stuff, we reached the end of the gigantic strip we didnt feel like going back down it so ashley decides that we should go around and try to get to the front ,since apperently my words never matter,so we end up getting lost on some street.15 minutes later we found the starting point.......yah i hate ashley.i will say out of all the hastle,and getting lost the worst part about the market strip was that some dued came up in my ear and said;i truly love you marry me" @!$.
i found out that if i dont balance my music i go phsyco.because i wanted to listen to panic ! at the disco the whole trip,but i found out if i dont listen to fall out boy and or any other band in my favorites that i can cause alot more damage than i usaully do. and ashley still has the scars.